I can’t remember a time when I was satisfied with my weight. I’ve been more or less overweight my entire adult life. My self-discipline comes and goes, but most of the time it goes. (Like how I just scarfed down a honking slice of peanut butter pie topped with fudge for dessert at lunch. Hey, it was a special occasion.)
But now, I’m determined—aside from the pie. Not really for any reason other than I’m tired of my clothes being too tight, yet again. Oh and also because of Jennifer Hudson. Weight Watchers really hit it big with her. What a thinspiration!
The night Obama announced that Bin Laden was dead (a weird event to associate with weight loss, I know), I was trolling the Internet before the press conference and happened upon a Jennifer Hudson WW ad. I’d been toying with the idea of joining again (I did the program in high school and lost about 20 pounds), and for some reason at that moment I was hit with a wave of inspiration and motivation.
She just looks so fabulous, you know? I want to look that fabulous! I want to feel pretty and have smaller boobs and a bony collarbone and arms that don’t belong on a lunch lady. Plus, I am really tired of being the fat bridesmaid.
Five weeks later, I’ve lost 9 pounds so far and it feels great. Seeing the number on the scale decrease week after week, it’s extremely satisfying. (Especially on my super cute new blue scale.) I’m doing the program completely online, which I think will help me stick with it. In high school, going to the weekly meetings became a chore. But with the online system, I can track my weight, activity and everything I eat without carrying a notebook around. For you doubters—I really can’t stress enough how much of a difference it makes to keep track of what you eat.
I’m getting better about making healthy food choices, but I’m still having trouble getting into an exercise regimen. So I have to ask, how do you stick to your routines? It’s excruciating for me to get up early, but the more weeks that go by without any significant exercise, the more I think I might have to commit to a morning workout.
Ugh. Wish me luck!
